Saturday, December 4, 2010

miserable?? s0rt of....aigooo

assalamualaikum wth....^^

hell0o2 guys....emmmmmmmmmm,a bit serabut...i dunn0...ommmo~~ rasa cm unstable je em0si ni...knape2?? emm...entah la..y aku tahu n y aku mahu skg..hanya Allah SWT dlm hati ni...aku klu xley td0...zikir..sblum td0 zkir..naik tngga zikir...sbb aku xnak kalimah Allah SWT itu hilang dr hati aku...klu aku serabut2 aku zkir jugak...emm...aku ase aku cm nga bperang ngn hati aku sndiri...cm x tenang...tp pas aku zkir..aku ukei balek..cume kdg2 susah t0i nk kawal em0 ni..ish~ 2 lah jd pmpuan ni susah...serius...ad0yaii....but n0 w0rries..im only being myself..xde talam 2 muka ke ape2 ke...yeah..impr0ving myself..making a better tun2...kn2??? 

mybe kn...msalahnye aku ni mmg mnja k0t ehh ngn org....suka nk merap...tahu x merap 2 apa? mcm nk melekat je memanjang...hahaha..tp xla over..cume kuat merap la...certain org jep...mcm ngn snior aku s0rg ni,abg syahir nma dia...baik la ngn aku..aku baik ngn dia gak..rcently,kt dia aku ske cte sume bnda...aku slalu warning kt diri sndiri,th0ught of him as a br0ther n u'll be fine che tun...n i did...i always guarded ble ase cm aku nk TER exceed limit sbg adik...wohooo..xm0o feeling lbey dr kwn....die abg y baik...i've been telling myself...juz chillax...abg syahir,he's g0ing 2 be 4ever my br0ther...tp kn..bkn abg2 agkat tau..ewwww...geli laaaa...hahaha..kawan..kwan baik2 je sume..bru bes~! 

pastu ngn sni0r s0rg ag..y ni...entahla...i think i did him wr0ng...i was unable 2 c0ntrol my emo,s0o ape tah aku ckp kt sni0r aku 2...harsh k0t...n he seemed like he w0nt even smile 2 me...sdey..agakla..h0w im n0t...he had been very nice...seri0us..but i was the one dat make things upside d0wn...s0o,i was the one 2 b blamed...ape p0n..im facing the future..x ape lah...i juz wanna be me..n im impr0ving myself...im an ordinary girl,a very simple one..i changed m0od rand0mly...tp aku mmg ske manja kn org...n manja ngn org...

dgn kawan2 aku..y rapat la..sume aku suap..gune sudu,guna tangan?? 2x..sbb aku snang syang org neh....s0nok je...nak slalu igt ALLAH...nak slalu fikirkn Dia...xnak fkir pasal lelaki...xnak2...nak kawan baik2 ngn sume org...ckuplah Allah bagiku...t0 abg syahir n my sni0r...thanx you...u b0th had been very nice...tp tun na biasa2 jep...tun p0n na jd org biasa je utk 2x sni0r tun ni...s0ry2 tau...i'll b ur gud gurl lah...insyaALLAH..

huaaaaaa...na k0ntrol em0si ni...nak3....em! ^^ bley3...n i l0ve dis quote.. 

dis is me...the sad bear..s0b3..

"everyone thinks that i'm like a good
egg even though u know that i were slightly cracked" 

yeah..im slightly cracked..but im repairing myself..c0z ALLAH always here..always near.. ^^

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